My brother’s tux from high school. It was last worn 25 years ago. Does that make it “vintage” or “classic?”
Tonight was my company’s Christmas party. I wore my brother’s tux from high school. It fits me perfectly – it looks as if it were custom tailored for me. I can’t believe how excited I felt while I was getting ready. It was an incredible feeling to be getting dressed in what I WANTED to wear, felt comfortable wearing, and SHOULD be wearing, rather than feeling extremely uncomfortable and self-conscious in women’s clothes. I can’t remember the last time I was actually excited about dressing up, much less looking forward to a company social event!
At the party, other than my usual social anxiety, I felt really comfortable. I think several employees who I don’t know were taken aback a bit by my attire, but I didn’t feel embarrassed or self-conscious at all. In fact, I have found that as of late I hardly worry about what people may think. I think I dress a little nerdy, but I don’t find myself worrying I might look stupid or silly. I believe I just feel so much more comfortable in my skin that for the first time in my life, I don’t need outside approval or reassurance that I look okay.